Biography -01212011 자서전-2011년 1월 21일

I, a servant of God, who have already known of Jesus, will give glory to God through the biography as a testimony and a life of witness of Jesus. My flesh is not mine any more, but belongs to God.

God Called Me

On March 27, 2007, I was reborn as a servant of the Lord in forty years old in Korea. Now, the Lord is using me as a tool for sick people to be healed by the Lord, and for thirsty and hungry people to be full with the God’s Words in First United Methodist Church at Rantoul in the U.S., although I have no an official position yet in the visible world.

In the evening of November 2007, I felt a sharp pain in my left lower abdomen, but I did not know why. While I was teaching Math to students in my own private academy, “Hans Academy,” I was seriously suffering from the pain for the three and half hours. I had to teach two more classes, but I barely came back home and spent the night scarcely, holding myself against the pain alone, because my children and wife were studying abroad in Champaign, IL, U.S. That was the first signal from the Lord in forty years old. The cause of the pain turned out as urolithiasis. For the next five months, I had to receive electric treatment, commuting the hospital about twice a week. The treatment was to insert high volts of electricity in my body, in the form of a quick jolt. Since I was healthy, the illness was shocked for me. And the omen of the signal from the Lord occurred to me in succession. My burden that I had to support my family who was in the U.S. caused material desires. The result of desires became large greed. As a result of my greed, I lost all my fortune (property) in a short period of time: two houses, a car, and the others, except my family and my own private academy. That was the second signal from the Lord.

At last, about 2:00 pm on Sunday, March 27, 2007,I went to a church that located nearby my home in Korea, after I finished hiking a mountain. When I visited the church, I heard gospels in the second worship. Peace and warmness in the worship made me free, which I had never felt for a long period of time. Before that day, I had believed in Buddhism for twenty five years. I was a pagan for God. My wife recommended me go to a church several times, since she had lived in America. I rejected strongly it by way of a plausible excuse, the liberty of the religion. But my wife said “Please, go to a church so that you may give thanks to God, “Thank you very much for protecting my family in the U.S. instead of me.” These words moved my heart truly, so I went to the church to give thanks to God. It was the first day that I turned into God, and that I started my second life by God.

However, I will obey God’s Wills not Follow My Righteousness

God gave what I must do in the school years and for the rest of my life: recovering the worships, healing ministry, and helping North Korea and other Ministries. However, I do not know tomorrow and the future. One thing that I know is that I must obey God’s Wills, not follow my wills and righteousness. The Father gave the Word to me. “Enter through the narrow gate” (Matthew 7:13), when I started applying for the seminary. In this moment, the Father asks me that I should approach to him and go toward to him with magnanimity of faith and the complete obedience to God. My flesh is not mine, but belongs to God.

Heavenly Father,

I hope,

you make my center of heart go toward you,

and you lead me to become a person

who resides in you,

who resembles you,

who walks with you.

Because I knew already you,

I, a sinner,

no more turning back.

To face you,

is not for my righteousness,

is not for seeking glory for myself,

but, merely does take up my little cross in my heart,

which you gave to me.

Please, let me deny myself,

let me be empty from desires,

so that,

 with obedience of readiness,

I can go forward to you

In Jesus Name, Amen

Bless the Lord, O my soul! Alleluia! (Psalms 104)

January 21, 2011

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